Problem & Hurt.

Assalamualaikum & Hi.

Ya Allah, rasa macam jatuh dan tak mampu nak bangun. Huuuuuuuuuuh! *Takbaik mengeluh.

                                                     I'm tired of living this life.

Forgive me Ya Allah, but seriously, I always getting hurt by someone who I love the most. Yeke? Aku rasa macam biasa jea. Hahahhhahahahahahaha. Yes, I'm crying and then laughing. This is me.

Well, before I forgot. Korang ade baca kan post yang lain. Aku baca balik sebab nak cari "I don't have any feeling towards you." tu baru aku perasan banyak gila typo. Aku harap orang paham la yea sayang :*

Haaaaaa! Pasal tu, aku taktahu nak cakap ape, aku pun tengah berteleku memirkan adakah aku menyayanginya ataupun tidak? *Ayat sangat gramatis. Huhu.
Maybe that feelings only come when I'm bored & lonely maybe. Because I don't trust anyone anymore. But I do trust Siti Nur Bahirah Binti Bukhari. So sayang, please don't break my heart and you please don't make her break my hearts. Hahahhah. This is what we called Drama Tamil. But I'm serious, I love my friends but I love her more.

Kannnnnnnnnnnnnn, dah lari tajuk. Okay! Since that day I don't know why but now I really want to say that I don't have any feeling towards you anymore. This time, I'm serious sayang. I don't sayang you like I sayang you 1 year 1 month 2 days ago. Everything changes now. Same as you say you dah tak pandai pujuk since a year ago. Then, maybe I changed too. But, sayang jugaa. How tu say ya? I think I had lied to myself when I said I don't love you anymore. But I don't know & understand actually. That time you have sore throat then how I can say something like that? Hmm, to be honest, I don't even understand myself. I'm confused. I don't why/what/how can you please answer it to me? But, I never doakan you mati seperti yang anda minta yea Never! Huhu. Too complicated to describe about what I felt lahh. Maybe I just want you to be there. But you never be there. And yes, that's the fact.  Sometimes, I just hurting myself.Oh please! Ramai lagi manusia kat luar sana. Giving up on you. But I'm moving on :')

*if I'm talking about hati & perasaan saya lebih selesa cakap dalam English language, you know why? Because ayat melayu sangat la romantis and ber hyperbola. Hohohoho. Surat cinta mesti kene dalam English language juga walaupun ayat berterabur.


Okay, see the title *Baru nak cerita pasal tajuk? 
 Hahahahhaha. Alaaaaaaa, yang hurt tu yang atas tu la. Yang problem tu yang tu la juga. I have a problem with my heart/brain/mouth. Hahahhahahahhahahahah. Yes. Please fix it up for me? *Suara gedik. hehe :p

Weyyyy korang 11/12/13 aku terkejut tau bila SABAH hanta chat, minta maaf. I was like lol? Dia ni kenapa kan? Dia minta maaf? Hahahhaha. Aku rasa aku yang banyak dosa kat dia, selalu jea nak minta maaf tapi tak pernah, tingginye ego? Bukan ego but malu. Nope, bukan malu just tak tahu nak mula dari mana. Then, dia minta maaf and I was like. Good if you yang mulakan dulu. Sempat lagi kitorang buat drama plus lawak. Happy to see you with someone faithful :) Hehe.

cuti sekolah sudah mahu tamat maaa. Tak rasa cuti pun? Eh? Hahahhaahhahah. uti ni tak jumpa The Girls pun Zaty/Anny/Siti?Diana?Jat. Jat? I text tak reply, khabar ape pun takde, seriously, I'm not that type yang akan ingatkan orang untuk ingatkan aku. Seperti yang dikata kalau ia penting kita akan memberi tumpuan. Hahahhahah. Busy or tak perasan my mcg kot? But it's okay, I still love you :* Hehe.  I just met Diyana because we went to pusat belajar memandu. Yeayyy! Kite dah ade Lesen P. Thanks to pakcik JPJ kerana mengluluskan. I know I'm hebat. Hahahhaha. Time nak naik pusing tempat yang kasi JPJ tengok tu aku dah berdebar debar macam jatuh cinta pun ade tau? Hahahaha.

The problem & drama that I got.

1. Dengar ceramah
lelaki tu boleh pula bising kat belakang aku, rasa nak kasi kaki jea kat muka dia. Geram betul.
Then, dia sengaja kasi jatuh dia punya dompet sebab nak suruh aku tegur, drama betul? Mulamula tu mana aku tahu. Diyana lah cakap, dia sengaja jatuhkan dompet padahal dah ade orang tegur dia just "okayokay." then I pusing so I tegur la, lepas jea I tegur tahu dia cakap ape? *senyum, buat muka tak bersaalah, ambil dompet and then oh then gelakgelak dengan kawan dia.* aku pun pelik then dia cerita baru lah aku paham. Smash your head baru tauuu!

2. Test computer.
 Dah la sorangsorang, Diyana ade hal. Okay then dalam kereta tu ade la 2orang lelaki. Sumpah aku cakap time tu pening plus nak termuntah. Time ambil tu takut juga tak lulus, and then Yessssssss! Lulus :* Time nak balik tu lelaki tu boleh pula buat bising main dia punya phone kut. Terketuk ketuk. Aku macam nak cakap jea "Kau boleh tolong diam tak." Tapi aku tak cakap la, sebab aku ni baik. *sangat. Hahahhaha. Nanti kata tak respect pula but time tu memang rasa nak muntah gila. Dah la mara gila kat mamat tu.Huuuuuuh!

3. Ujian memandu.
Okay jea. First time pegi tu boleh pula aku jatuh motor, aduhai. Terkejut sebab jatuh. aku berdiri motor tu yang jatuh ikgu tu la tetiba panggil. Hahahahahhah, malu jea kat mamat kasturi tu. Mulamula aku ingatkan brother tu rupanya tak. Hahahhahha. cikgu yang ajaar/tengok tu memang terbaik la. Sangat baik, saya suka saya suka *Mei mei.

4. Hari test JPJ.
Enjin tidak bisa dihidupkan. Ya ampun, tolong la, depan orang ramai plus JPJ kot, aku dah malu tahap taktahu nak cakap ape tauu. Then okay, cikgu tu dapat jea keputuan aku dia cakap tak lulus, and I was like lahh yeke, tapi tadi JPJ tu kata pas. And I was like percaya kata cikgu tu. Dia sengaja mainmain tau siap cakap "saya ajar dulu tu macam mana?" Me: "saya buat semua tu la." But brek kecemasan aku macam kelakar jea, tapi okay la. Praise to Allah. Dah lulus dengan jayanye ^^
Nanti kite boleh pegi merempit. Hahahhaha. Naik Ego boleh merempit ke? Hehehe.

Time aku cakap nak deactive account Facebook tu. He was like betul ke? Me: "Bahagia mu deritaku." Him: "Ica bahagia, *nama dia* la derita. Dia siapa? Biarlah rahsia. Hahahhahahhahahah.

Hidup biar penuh misteri. Kadangkadang perkara yang dirahsiakan ini manis tau :P

Okay people. Have a blast! May Allah bless you :)